Did you play "Pin the Tail on the Donkey" growing up?  You are usually blindfolded.  You try to pin the tail in the appropriate place on a picture of a donkey.  The person who pins the tail closest to the correct spot wins.  Have you ever felt like that in your spiritual life? Like you are walking around blindfolded and stabbing in the air, close but not quite where you should be?  I told someone recently that most of what I used to believe, I no longer believe.  Take a breath, before you tell me I have back slid, need an intervention or, my all time favorite "I was never saved anyway". So much about spirituality that I learned in my earlier years needed unbelieving.  I took much of what others told me and pinned it to my outline of what I believed about the Divine.  I ingested it, often through my own wounds and need to fit into a family.  Words from God are true.  Words from imperfect people, not so much.  Some of what I pinned to my belief was based on interpretations.  Interpretations of imperfect people intertwined with tweaks that bend us away from Truth.  These tweaks often leave us confused and hurting.  Do you remember how you felt as a child when you took off that blindfold? That feeling of sadness when you realized you were no where close to the tail end.  The realization that you would not be the one getting the prize.  If your spiritual life leaves you feeling sad, let me encourage you.  The real prize may be realizing that you pinned your tail on the donkey instead of the Divine.